Dear Sir,

Dear Sir,
I once thought we were friends. I was mistaken.
I once thought I loved you. I was mislead.
I once waited for you. I missed out.
I once thought you were the tops. Again I was mistaken.
I once gave you my heart. Again I was mislead to believe you would hold it and keep it safe.
 
Dear Sir,
I was wrong about you. Oh so very wrong.
You no longer are the Sir I fell in love with.
You no longer are the friend I once had and loved so dear.
You had my heart in your hands and you played with it,
I let you because of who I believed you to be.

Dear Sir,
You should have protected the gift I gave you.
You should have returned it when you knew you didn't want it.
You should have stopped me from falling if you weren't willing to fall with me.

Dear Sir,
I should tell you,
I'm picking up the pieces you let fall.
I'm holding on to the truth of who I am without you.
I'm going to find someone who will protect my heart.
I'm going to find someone who will fall with me.

Dear Sir,
That someone...
... Its not you anymore.
                                  
                       Always,
                                Your Once Love

Forgiven

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I’m reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry
The weight of who I’ve been
Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am


When I don't fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ

Random Thought May 30th

I used to think i was a master at deception. I thought I was deceiving everyone. But i was really only deceiving myself. The joy of God is real and tangible in my life because I'm no longer trying to take control of it!

A new perspective

If you haven't guesses yet I am a hair dresser, it is my job to make you look and feel good about yourself everyday. I love love love what I do, but I have found in more recent days that I have started to judge people based on their looks. Like the type of person they are, if they are remotely attractive, if they look like they will be a big tipper or not. Ever since I started beauty school I was told to look, I mean really look at people and in a sense judge the way they look, what would I change, what can't I change and need to work around. I noticed that I began to only see the negative about people, only what would give me a challenge instead of looking at the beauty and what I can work with not agents.

When I moved back i told myself things will be different, I won't allow myself to think that way. Ha yeah right old habits die heard. And I noticed it more and I was truly appalled by what I was thinking about people. So I had a date with God and asked for a new perspective.

When is enough, enough? I got sick of how I thought about people. And I knew it was getting out of hand when I started judging the way friends looked. I know God made them in his image and I would say to myself "what were you thinking with that one?" or a like comment. Now I ask the same question but now wait for a far different answer.

I want to see people how gGod sees them, how he created them to be, and how beautiful he created them. I asked for Gods perspective. To open my eyes and them THEM. I find myself enjoying like and work so much more though Gods perspective rather then my worldly own.

So my question is who's perspective are you looking from?